What an irritating &^%%^$

I'm not sure weather it because of Monday blues or it because of me. I was doing my round in ICU as my routine. Then i met with one patient who need dialysis long time ago and he and his family keep delaying it and they refused to share the reason. But that okay for me as long as patient and family member understood the consequences of their actions, I will respect their decision.

The not so okay part is meeting with the family members who extremely demanding and fussy with almost cause me lost my temper (well i don't loss my temper easily). They want the best for his father. That part, I clearly understood. But when i say now is the best time to start dialysis, they gave me "that" look and start asking again the question that i has been answered earlier. So I explained to them again and again and we back to square one (again ?). Well i guess work has become tougher and tougher nowadays. God, will give strength and patient to serve the sicks.....

The biggest winner...

The weather is pretty hot now days. With El-Nina (it's not a name of girl he he..) is expected to visit us somewhere in August, plus hectic day at work, I decided to go swimming to public swimming pool to divert all my stress.

When i strokes, I realized that the journey in our life is just similar when you swimming. Each breath you take you must planned and well coordinated. Each swing you made must synchronized with your leg strokes or otherwise you might not catch enough breath or may not make an efficient moves. Then, all your energy will be wasted. You can't stop or otherwise you may sink or drowned. When u reach one end, it just a new start to the other end. But at the end of day, you are a winner after you completed your lap (Sound .......philosophical? he he...)

What I what to remind myself and others is all of us a winner as we never stop to fight in completing our own cycle of life. Nobody is born as a loser or biggest loser......

To panic or not to panic

HIN1 virus has reach Malaysia few months ago. But there no reason to panic as our health system is ready for another outbreak ( See, Malaysia health system is not too bad okay....). As I remember the last outbreak was 4-5 years ago (Nipah virus) and we manged it quit well. I still remember during my pre-clinical year in medical school (not so long time ago he he...), my lecturer said a fast spreading viral outbreak (the frightening Ebola virus for example) will dissappeared quickly. If i'm not mistaken, H1N1 is not a fast spreading virus, so it take some time before it totally cleared. Not all infected patient will end up with death. So to all my friend who ask this question, as I said earlier there no reason to be panic. Just be prepared

Second half ?

Time fly so fast, leaving us behind (because we are to slow to catch it he he...) . Tomorrow is the second half of 2009. Huh.... need to check out back all this year resolution. At least halves of them must be archived he...he... It just depend on what angle you look your life at. Meaning weather you seeing the cup of glass is half full or half empty.... Err... Hey where my 2009 resolution book? Dammm it i lost it ! May be I'll do a new one next year he...he... How about yours? Have you done something great?

Beautiful Minds

After finished my exam,I struggle to finish my oncall for this month just to make sure my vacation plan comes true. I set up a new record myself, I managed to do 4 oncalls within 8 days he....he....(I feels like superdoc he..he...) One thing for sure, i wont break my record again. So, i'm rewarding myself a trip to Pulau Redang. Far away from KL and i try not to think anything about work or study (at least for few days he he...)


Yes all of this things need to be left behind

Watch : Who need to know the time here, nothing to be rush. The sun will tell you weather it daytime or nighttime and your stomach will tell you when is the eating time he he...

Handphone : "Ops..... you have reach Happydoc voice mailbox, he will kindly return your call ASAP" (yeah, only when he reach KL back he he....)

Glasses : Err... definitely I don't need it for reading!!!!

Wallet : Err i might need this. Otherwise I might need to work here to pay my chalet bill and my return boat trip he he...



Yes, i'm 'lepak'ing at the beach the whole morning. Nothing to be worried.



This is one of the breathtaking scenery taken from my chalet. Pretty isn't it. The picture tells everything..........



An evening at the beach side. There no stressed out face from office rushing back home with bad odor and dirty shirt.



And this is for you guys ; )
Thanks a lots for reading......

The unsuccesful Transplant story

This guy serial of misery started 5 years ago. He is just 22 years old at that time. Both of his kidneys betrayed him and suddenly stopped functioning leaving him to no choice but to continue his life with dialysis. Meaning that he had to spent 3 times a week for 4 hours attached himself to the dialysis machine. I believe it 's not an enjoyable things to do. His mother, made a big sacrifice and give on of her kidney to him so that he can have a better quality of life. They both went the big operation without much complication but the stories does not end here. The transplanted kidney work as all of us wish. He goes home with multiple anti-rejection drugs to prevent rejection.

Then the nightmare begin. Six month after successful transplant, he started to have complication following anti-rejection (also called immuno-suppression). These anti rejection drug causes semi-paralysis of human normal immune system and subsequently cause host i.e patient easily infected by bacterial, viral or fungal. He came with a very bad lung infection and nearly died. I believe it must be her mother pray who saved him (apart from our medication). He managed to get through it for the second time (the first time was during the operation) and walk home safe.

Then he came again with second and then third very bad bad lung infection leaving his lung full of scarred tissue (which is no good because it reduce his lung function). The next infection will make it even worse. His lungs almost totally damage and the next thing he might need in the near future is lung transplant, but who is going to be the donor? How about you?

Now, considering he need the anti-rejection drugs for the kidney donated by his mother to work and balancing the side effect cause by those drug i.e severe life thretening infection, it's really a though decision to be made. Either to sacrifice the kidney given by his mother or his own lungs/life? Only God know the best....

Happy Mother's Day (err.. a little bit too late)

The story this time is a little bit different. Few months ago, I met this mother and her beloved child. She love her child very much even though her child is different from the others. Her child is one of those special child that need special needs and attention.

And now her child is 47 years old and she has been taking take her child for that grace period. Now, her child can amazingly function almost like normal individual and he even have his own job (He now working as teacher assistant)

This special mother with her special child had done fantastic job looking after her child even the people around her said she had done enough, and she should have a rest long time ago. Just imagine if she stopped, her child might not be as successful as now. She even decided not to have another baby so that she can give full attention to her special son. She should be very proud of herself.

The problem now is she is getting older and she knew she might not live longer. She worried nobody will take take of her son like she did. Her only hope is her other child to look after theit brother but it won't be the same.

What running in my mind is, how many of us had the courage and patient like her.........? I believe, not everyone of us can.....

I would like to wish Happy mother's day to all mother all over the world!!!!! All of you are the greatest mom of all......